Getting kicked back into action
So I wasn't very prepared for Sunday
So I didn't quite realise I was meant to do what I didn't think I was doing
So I know I probably stumbled over myself and made what was meant to be two very simple points into a mess
But I thank God that after all this time of trying to gather up the spiritual shrapnel in my life, He provided a solid teacher for FoP to give me, as I had nostalgically talked about with a chemistry graduate that night, the backside attack that I needed (yeah, for those planning to take chem in uni, there's actually a backside attack =P)
It was great. Friday was a day when I was kinda unmotivated in just about every respect. I say every respect, I kinda mean every respect. I really wasn't keen when dan told me that FoP was on that night, and I could tell he wasn't either. But we went in the end. And we were blessed. Well I know I was at least. Once again, in an environment where I didn't really care what other people thought of me... where I could be crazy and undignified... but most of all was the message.
The speaker was...... wow is about all I can say. He spoke probably WAY too fast for an 'effective' speaker, made WAY too many points for an 'effective' speaker, and delved too semi-deep for an 'effective' speaker. Yet I caught (and I think everyone else too) every point, processed them quickly enough, and could fill in the missing blanks. And wow I learnt a lot.
The first one was talking about a healthy church. Points were peace, encouragement, comfort, fear of the Lord. He talked about peace with God and gave the simplest, most graphic, most 'duh', and yet completely correct illustration of the Gospel message in about 2 minutes. Absolutely fascinating. He talked about the peace of God in our lives when we were struggling - and boy I needed this. He talked about peace with each other - which... well yeah, I have a LOOONG way to go with this one =P. And I quote: "When it says 'Go', in the original Greek, it actually means 'Go'." Heh, this one I'll keep with me for a while.
Encouragement. Firstly affirming what is already there, and then speaking the truth in love to correct the things that are there, but shouldn't be. I'd never had anyone done that to me. I've never had anyone I could do that with. The whole accountability thing cropping up again. I did what I was told. So... now what? I really have no idea. Again i'm at a loss at my position due to my background.
Comfort. The comforting work of the Holy Spirit, and the comforting work of each other. Some of you probably know by now that the verse that has been pushing me on while I've been in Singapore is centered around comfort. Even though I'm probably the least likely person to ever be in that position. Ah well, as if God ever let us off that easy =P
Fear of the Lord. This one was quite self-explanatory.
I've been walking alone. If there was a blunt truth about my walk with God for a while, and one that I've known all the while for a LONG time, its that I'm walking alone. And I don't know how to deal with both that and the precedented 'barriers' that are put in place (which by the way, I do realise still need to be there, cos suprise suprise, I'm a teenager. I KNOW those have to be there). But in the first place, I know the problems, so why should I even be waiting for someone to tell me what they are? It takes someone who knows me fairly well to tell me in my face (well, virtual intercontinental in-my-face =P) that I don't NEED anyone to tell me about things I'd been going through. If anything it should be the other way round! So that's where I'm gonna start going again. And for that, I'm gonna have to kick into gear once again.
After first night, I was totally refreshed even though drained. It was the spiritual push I needed after I had recovered from the physical and emotional. And there wasn't a doubt in my mind that I wanted to go the next night. And that, even knowing very few or none from kaleo would come, I went to ask every one that I had the contact for. Sure enough, none came along and I think that reveals something else as well. But that I won't talk about in this kind of medium =P.
Second night was also very meaningful, but I think that it'll have to wait for another time. Really need to sleep now. But... it smote me with a second helping of what I've been told OVER and OVER again. I think its a hint for me to respond to it. Just maybe =P
So I didn't quite realise I was meant to do what I didn't think I was doing
So I know I probably stumbled over myself and made what was meant to be two very simple points into a mess
But I thank God that after all this time of trying to gather up the spiritual shrapnel in my life, He provided a solid teacher for FoP to give me, as I had nostalgically talked about with a chemistry graduate that night, the backside attack that I needed (yeah, for those planning to take chem in uni, there's actually a backside attack =P)
It was great. Friday was a day when I was kinda unmotivated in just about every respect. I say every respect, I kinda mean every respect. I really wasn't keen when dan told me that FoP was on that night, and I could tell he wasn't either. But we went in the end. And we were blessed. Well I know I was at least. Once again, in an environment where I didn't really care what other people thought of me... where I could be crazy and undignified... but most of all was the message.
The speaker was...... wow is about all I can say. He spoke probably WAY too fast for an 'effective' speaker, made WAY too many points for an 'effective' speaker, and delved too semi-deep for an 'effective' speaker. Yet I caught (and I think everyone else too) every point, processed them quickly enough, and could fill in the missing blanks. And wow I learnt a lot.
The first one was talking about a healthy church. Points were peace, encouragement, comfort, fear of the Lord. He talked about peace with God and gave the simplest, most graphic, most 'duh', and yet completely correct illustration of the Gospel message in about 2 minutes. Absolutely fascinating. He talked about the peace of God in our lives when we were struggling - and boy I needed this. He talked about peace with each other - which... well yeah, I have a LOOONG way to go with this one =P. And I quote: "When it says 'Go', in the original Greek, it actually means 'Go'." Heh, this one I'll keep with me for a while.
Encouragement. Firstly affirming what is already there, and then speaking the truth in love to correct the things that are there, but shouldn't be. I'd never had anyone done that to me. I've never had anyone I could do that with. The whole accountability thing cropping up again. I did what I was told. So... now what? I really have no idea. Again i'm at a loss at my position due to my background.
Comfort. The comforting work of the Holy Spirit, and the comforting work of each other. Some of you probably know by now that the verse that has been pushing me on while I've been in Singapore is centered around comfort. Even though I'm probably the least likely person to ever be in that position. Ah well, as if God ever let us off that easy =P
Fear of the Lord. This one was quite self-explanatory.
I've been walking alone. If there was a blunt truth about my walk with God for a while, and one that I've known all the while for a LONG time, its that I'm walking alone. And I don't know how to deal with both that and the precedented 'barriers' that are put in place (which by the way, I do realise still need to be there, cos suprise suprise, I'm a teenager. I KNOW those have to be there). But in the first place, I know the problems, so why should I even be waiting for someone to tell me what they are? It takes someone who knows me fairly well to tell me in my face (well, virtual intercontinental in-my-face =P) that I don't NEED anyone to tell me about things I'd been going through. If anything it should be the other way round! So that's where I'm gonna start going again. And for that, I'm gonna have to kick into gear once again.
After first night, I was totally refreshed even though drained. It was the spiritual push I needed after I had recovered from the physical and emotional. And there wasn't a doubt in my mind that I wanted to go the next night. And that, even knowing very few or none from kaleo would come, I went to ask every one that I had the contact for. Sure enough, none came along and I think that reveals something else as well. But that I won't talk about in this kind of medium =P.
Second night was also very meaningful, but I think that it'll have to wait for another time. Really need to sleep now. But... it smote me with a second helping of what I've been told OVER and OVER again. I think its a hint for me to respond to it. Just maybe =P
posted by Psistriker at
8:54 AM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
Subscribe to Post Comments [Atom]
<< Home